All Logic Lost

I believe that one of the most important quotes I have come across so far, refers to a paragraph describing Noel, going out for coffee, alone. "I was wearing a pair of Julius's trousers- simple grey funnels- and a pair of his shoes as well. The shoes never felt like my own because of the imprint of his toes, but I always felt like his trousers could be his and mine together. I continue to believe that there can be an intimacy between two people that is simpler and subtler that the social mind or words like "love" or "friendship" can ever adequately encompass. It is there in the feeling of flannel on thigh, and even to describe it as intimacy is to summon it from the dictionary, where all good feelings have died. When my drink was ready, the girl behind the counter shouted, "Hot chocolate for Julius!" and I smiled and took my cup." (Mcadam 264).

Once again this paragraph proves Noel's faltering mental stability. Noel's obsession for Julius has again grown drastically. Not only has Noel lied to Julius, stolen, and used his things such as clothing and lighters, and worst of all hurt Fall, now Noel has begun to lie about who he is, calling himself Julius. His obsession with the two has turned from harmless fantasy to Schizophrenic and sociopathic behaviour. 

This paragraph ties in to the previous blogs I made comparing the novel Fall with the movie "The Roommate" and also the blog I made on why there was a lot of controversy during Elizabethan times, when it came to acting and taking on the role of someone else. Noel clearly is no longer able to discern the line between what is reality and what is fantasy. I had predicted that he would become mentally unstable and would not be able to contain his feelings and anger, and I believe now that he believes he is Julius, he will do whatever he can to get rid of his remaining competition, the real Julius. 

Noel has no boundaries and has a habit of getting rid of anyone who opposes him, first when he attacks Anderson, "We're all looking and there's your roommate with this swelling crazy eye and a mouthful of Andersons flesh...There's something I don't trust. You had to see it J" (McAdam 113), then later when he assaults Fall "She kept turing her face away from my mouth and all I wanted to do was convince her. I was pushing her backward- forward in my mind- and she tried to get around me" (McAdam 176). I believe that Julius will attempt to confront Noel about his actions and Noel will not be able to take it, Noel will finally snap and try to get rid of Julius as well.